Just a few more weeks!!

Wow! It is just a few more weeks till Baby L is here! Monday night I had dinner with my bff (baby L's mom). I realized that it was probably our last girl dinner with just the two of us. There is nothing wrong with that...baby L will just be a great addition to our girl talk. :) It was just the realization that our lives are about to change drastically. 

I ache for my bff the most. I'm sure it is hard being pregnant and the weight of caring for this unborn child. It is solely on her shoulders right now. That must be a lot of stress. I thought that she might be getting neglected because I'm sure most people are more concerned with Baby L than they are concerned about my bff's sanity and health. I want to make sure I give my bff just as much attention as I give Baby L when she gets here. That is one of my biggest goals. Of course I will love my goddaughter/"niece" but I also want my bff to feel just as much love and attention. I don't want my bff to feel neglected.

I also have to acknowledge some of my fear of how this new baby could change my relationship with my bff. Of course her daughter comes before our friendship but it will be an adjustment to me. I'm not going to try to compete with a baby. I want to focus on being a support to my bff. I know that our friendship is one of the healthiest friendships I have ever had in my life. I know that I can talk to my bff about anything...even the painful and uncomfortable stuff. We can be open and honest with each other. I hope she knows she can tell me to back off or tell me what support she needs and know that I won't freak out. Of course it might be painful for a minute but I'll get over it and be logical about it. I just want to be a good friend and godmother. :)

Part of being a good friend and godmother is to make me the best person I can be for myself. I have started learning more about myself and working through some of my weaknesses. I am hoping I see improvement in myself and growth. The better I am for myself, the better I will be for those around me. It has been a slightly painful process so far but it will get easier with time. 

I'm very excited to meet Baby L and watch this journey for my bff and her hubby. They are going to be amazing parents...they already are amazing parents! I'm so proud and happy for both of them! I love all three of them dearly and I'm honored to be an adopted member of their family. :)